It’s disappointing and annoying at the same time to see people doing certain things because they are seemingly the popular and trendy things. And if you are not doing likewise, you are labelled ‘boring’, labelled ‘not flexible’, etc. But are those driven by true love or pseudo love? Is getting into that circle of popularity becoming the priority of what you are persuing?
Standing in sinking mud and saying its safe? Enlighten me, society. Not.
I would say I (finally) felt that ‘blow’ ever since I’m back from tz. It has been a month and 12days. Tons of thoughts going through my mind. I knew I felt something amissed in the afternoon but more things only build up.. Though of a different issue.
Little do we always realize that as we are growing up, our parents are growing old.. Physically. The changes in their health, behaviors, etc. Yet they are still working as hard-lacking rest, getting stressed out by work and working over many late nights to earn money? Why? For a living? For comfort? For education? For..?
So how?.. After my education I have to find a job and work my butt off and do the way they did? Being stuck in that seemingly pathed out life of unbreakable cycle? What exactly are we persuing in this present life on earth? What is our priority? What is occupying the most of our time?
Not that I’m finding an excuse to complain about providing for my parents in the future. It’s a definite thing to take care of them as they grow old. But are we too caught up by wanting too much comfort on earth that we forgot our purpose here?
And going back to study means more money is needed and more is required from them just makes me feel…. but they really want me to. And it seems to add another ‘weight’ to it. If I do not do well after paying so much-all their hard earn money, isn’t it going to waste? Okayyy, all the negative random thoughts are out now. Bye.
Beyond all these, I choose to trust in Your leading, Lord. As I submit. I know You know what’s ahead. Step by step.
Getting in tune with Him 